Tuesday, August 23, 2011
I am a single mom. I have been officially for almost 5 years. When I think about it though I have been a single mom for a lot longer. There was the year and half my ex husband was in Iraq, and the 3rd shift work. He just wasn't around much. It was what it was and that is that.
I miss the days of being able to jump in the car kid free to run to the gas station, or the grocery store and be in and out and done in less than an hour. I miss being able to go out for a while with friends and not having to beg and plead and bargain for a babysitter for a few hours. I hear people say how they feel like a single parent all the time and blah blah blah.. I want to scream at them SHUT UP! At least they get those 5, 10, 15 minutes that I crave.
Tonight I realized just how much this single parent hood thing sucks. I had to be two places at the same time for two pretty important informational meetings. I felt like such an idiot jumping back and forth between the two all night. I did it, with all 4 kids in tow, and I guess that is good. I have a headache trying to go through all the things I learned about tonight though.
My kids are getting older and want to start all the fun things. Band, choir, girl scouts, football, basketball. There is only 1 of me! I am not superwoman. I don't have superpowers to be all these places. I am stuck. And feel like a complete failure.
So how do you do it? I know there are other single moms out there. Do you have it figured out? How are you able to be two people at one time? Please help!